Shortcomings

Dear Son,

Today I failed you a little bit. Perhaps more than that. I wasn't as patient as I should be with a two year old. Actually, age shouldn't even be a factor. I wasn't as patient as I should be with you - at any age. Period. I won't go into the reasons or try to explain - for there are no worthy explanations or excuses.

Today I raised my voice. For that I am eternally sorry. I never thought I'd be 'that mom' - but today I was. I promise to pray for more grace and for more of that . . . that 'it' thing that separates 'just ok' moms - from moms that all little boys wish they had. I forever want to be in the latter category.

Tonight - you showed me the magnitude of your forgiveness and unconditional love when you said to me:

'You need to close computer Mommy . . . Want to dance with Luca?'


And so, we danced.


I love you.

And I promise you - the very next time my patience feels thin . . .

I will remember that I am the luckiest person in the world.